Journal 2.

With the majority of my focus being on preparing to do the best possible job I can do on those mats in three weeks, it’s tricky to think about anything else. Given that last month I was trying to get into a solid routine and now that I’m in that routine, a lesson was presented.

I’ve said in the past that I find it difficult to find my balance on tightrope of trusting in the unforeseen and taking control to make things happen. And there’s no doubt a time for each but deciding which mindset is what is complex. The worker side of me says get it done and react now regardless of consequences but the intellectual side says relax, respond thoroughly, control what you can, and have faith that it’ll work out because that it usually does, even if at the moment it may not seem like it.

Life, rather the one that it’s our own heads and not reality that occurs, will always throw curve balls at us and our minds do not know the difference. It’s important to acknowledge that. As humans we are born with a negative bias towards things and as life occurs it gains in strength. Now combine that with stress, too many people comparing lives (even unintentionally), lack of patience and absence of faith. It is a neurological mess and when the mind and spirit are not right, life isn’t either.

What’s the takeaway here?

There is a merging point where the two meet. I refer to it as Aggressive patience. Meaning that as you continue to do the work that needs to be done in order to get where you want to be and have plans to handle the obstacles that are inevitable. While simultaneously having the faith or hope that your work both internally and externally to control what controls us, better understood as “you’ve changed!”. Then eventually, when it’s time, we will reach the peak of the various mountains each of us are climbing.

When we reach the peaks, absorb it and use the lessons from each climb to conquer the next one.

Peyton.

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